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bong~bong @// 28.5.09

These days, I've been running on my backup battery.

With no desire or motivation or whatsoever to recharge myself. It's one of those days when I just wish to do nothing and just turn mouldy. I get like that every now and then. More often than not, actually. On such days, I just want to lie on the bed all day long or hide myself in the internet world and surf the web aimlessly and endlessly.

But of course, with Melody around, there are no such luxuries for downtime. Either you pick yourself up and drag your feet about the house playing many rounds of hide-and-seek, or you turn on the TV and let Barney entertain her while you count down to the hours before bedtime.

Fortunately for me, I have my aunt got me off the kid for most of the days. I was able to do things that I wasn't able to do. Like daydream. Idle. And then with some time to spare, I was able to think about why I am not as contented with my life as I should be. Why I am losing patience with the kid more these days. And why I am always yearning for another life, somewhere else.

The grass is always greener on the other side of the hill. We are always wishing for things that we can't have. I am constantly reminding myself to live the present. But it is hard. For me, at least.

I need changes. I crave changes. A little difference in the routine life of tending between my work & kid. Something to look forward to, perhaps? Just something. Anything.

Or maybe I am just ungrateful. I already have a lot. And yet here I am, wishing for more.

Would someone please turn on the lights for me? Or do I have to do that myself?

But sometimes I just want to be in the dark.

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bong~bong @// 27.5.09

Monday, May 18, 2009

♥ A date with the Zoo animals

We’ve been to the Singapore Zoo for quite a number of times but I don’t think we’ll ever get tired of it.

We get to see and learn about beautiful creatures - big and small, cute and weird-looking - AND we simply love its open concept where we don’t have ‘cages’ between us and the animals, as well as the fact that it preserves its green landscape well too.

My family and I were there on last Sunday for a good 7 hours! We enjoyed ourselves.

The last time we went to the Zoo, it was pouring so bad we ended up spending a few good hours under its many shelters!

Last week, the weather was good. We want to make our visit more worthwhile so we went as prepared as possible. We got ourselves drinks and buns, I got extra sets of clothes for Melody and my sister made sure umbrella was brought along. The weather was hot & humid. And everyone got rather sticky throughout our day there, I reckon it was still SO much better than getting rained on!

We were there from 9am to 4pm! Have our Jungle breakfast at Ah Meng Restaurant. Compared to our previous visits, this time round we got to see so much more exhibits, animal shows and learn quite a bit about the animals too.

I’d say the trip went really well EXCEPT for the fact that i got bitten by some mad mosquitoes. By now, i don’t feel the itch anymore BUT I just know the ‘dark-brown’ marks will stay for a few more weeks. What a souvenir.

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bong~bong @// 18.5.09

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

♥ Mothering 1..

I have been selfish.

For the longest time, I have wished I have no kid. Even though we both wanted 1, when 1 really happened, it was such a huge change in our lives that I started to resent my life. It was not entirely because it was plain tiring to take care of 1 kid under 3.

I guess the problem was ME. And the problem lived in my head.

I know it's terrible.

But I am still trying to learn how to be a mom that I can be proud of, myself.

That is why I need to constantly remind myself how blessed I am to have Melody.

I mean, just look at her! How can I not love her?

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bong~bong @// 13.5.09

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

♥ My First Mother's day gift....

My First Mother's day... GIFT... from my lovely Melody....

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bong~bong @// 12.5.09